Well is it time to plant flowers or isn't it? Hot, freezing, snow, cool, warm, freeeeeeezing,,,, I am confused for sure. It is spring, winter, fall, or summer? We have had all four in the past few weeks. I'll tell ya, I am ready to plant flowers. My daffodils have bloomed and gone. I am in great need of Springtime. New life, beginning, all things that have been dormant springing to life again, green, yellow, purple, pink, yes color that is what I need.Plenty of change going on in our home.
A new position at work starting in April for me.
And it seems new things each and every day for my child.
When I was involved with the youth ministry, I was responsible for each and every young person's spiritual present and future. Christian music was all that was played, movies usually had some form of spiritual content, or a theme that could be pulled from. I was responsible for all the time that young person spent with me to see that the content of our time together was directing them in the direction of our wonderful Savior. The biggest challenge was hearing God's voice for each one individually, not lumping them all together and treating them like one person. As a parent I have had to draw on that knowledge soooo very many times. Trying to be open and letting her make decisions of her own at this time in her life isn't easy. Not just now, but never has been. OK! I have control issues. Since she turned 10 I have been asking God about direction in the teen years, have made many mistakes (and we are not that far in the teens yet), learned from a few, but tried to push some of the failures through a second time just to make sure it wasn't goint to work at all with her.... and of course it didn't.
I remember when I got the call that she was going to be my child, for sure, no turning back call, the prayer that I prayed then still resonates in my being. And now I look back at what God showed me in a brief vision of what her life would be, the things she would accel at, I am in awe that he knew while she was still in the birth mothers womb what she would do, things that would come naturally to her, and the things would cause her some difficulty in life. Things that I had no knowledge about how to lead or guide her in, I didn't have to have any knowledge, because God had placed it within her from the beginning of her time. I am amazed, and I am challenged to see that opprotunities are given to her. I question how to lead her, how to let her be, when to back up and when to move forward. But God is Omnipotent. He has shown me in just a few weeks His presence in her life. He has given direction, He not me is working in and with her. I see spiritual growth, I hear spiritual growth, and I am amazed.
God is good, He is our provider, We have His favor, We are more than conquerors through Jesus Christ, Weapons formed against us shall not prosper, He is Jehovah Shalom, our Peace.
Hmmm, I do have color in my life, no matter winter, spring, summer, or fall, I have all the colors of God around me, the colors of love, peace, joy, faith, strength. I just have to take a moment to stop, be still and see, really see life around me.
